Ahhhh....

What a nice weekend! It's been good for the soul.

On Friday night, I started my new Bible study. I was a little bit worried it would be awkward, because several of the participants are all related, and I didn't want to feel like the outsider. Our new pastor has everyone doing Life journals, which is basically a designated passage every day for quiet time, then some places to journal about prayer requests and what you've learned from the passage. I'm not so good with being consistant about my quiet time, so the journal is good for me. Anyway, the Bible study is basically meeting to discuss the scripture from the week, which I like, because it's not some forced curriculum like many other Bible studies. I wasn't saying very much just because...I don't know. I guess I didn't have a lot to say. The leader basically said, "If you don't say anything, how will we get to know you?" She made me feel like they wanted to hear what I had to say, which was nice. We started sharing some prayer requests and I asked for some very general prayer about our financial stuff. They asked some questions, and their jaws dropped at some of my answers (like about the power bill and fraudulant credit card charges). I realized that I suppress a lot. I have constant knowledge of these things and I carry it with me everywhere, and sometimes I don't realize how much I keep inside. It was good to get things out, and it's nice to be supported in prayer.

Saturday, I woke up with another migraine. I've been having them sooo frequently lately. It finally went away, and DH and I drove down to visit my family. I had lunch with my best friend, which was a nice break and helped to get the proper perspective again. I got to spend some quality time with my niece and nephew (and their parentals), then had dinner with the fam. Just as we were walking out the door, my sister and her boyfriend drove up, and my sister convinced me to spend the night (which I didn't fight against, because I was NOT excited about spending a night in our apartment alone while DH went to work). Today I've relaxed with my parents and sister. She's currently in my apartment making me a painting to hang above our couch (she got ALL the artistic talent in the family, plus some), and I got a little bit of organizing done in our office closet.

I feel like all my stress came to a head over the weekend. Maybe it was being removed from my everyday life. I don't know, but I felt like I was on the verge of tears most of the weekend. I haven't felt unhappy, just overwhelmed. Like I said, I think I've just been supressing everything so I can keep my game face on at work. I've had a chance to talk things out now, and I feel like I'm good to go again. I'm going to start back with running now that I know I'm not pregnant, and our Rosetta Stone program came in, so we're going to start working on that.