I'm not really sure what to say today, other than I feel like writing. It's been a week full of ups and downs. It's been hard for me to keep it together this week. I was feeling pretty down about the whole not having a baby thing and we were considering not going to Bible study just so we could not face people for a little while, but I decided we should go. We can't just hunker down and hide away from the world every time we're feeling sad about this. Plus, we aren't really telling people about us TTC, so we need to carry on and act like everything's ok. So anyway, we walk in the door to Bible study and--no lie--the FIRST question we get asked is, "So why don't you guys have kids yet?" We know the people fairly well (it's not like they're complete strangers or anything), but still...it took everything I had to act completely unfazed.

I feel like I've gotten pretty good at putting my game face on at work. Today I was feeling pretty low at lunchtime,though. The topic of conversation lately seems to be my pregnant coworker. My other coworker noticed and commented on it, but I just played it off as being tired. I don't know how long she's going to buy that one, though.

I'm pretty thankful for this blogging outlet, though. I finally have some followers (yay!) but when I first began, I couldn't have cared less if no one ever read it--I just wanted to have a place to let everything out. As I mentioned above, we aren't telling hardly anyone up here that we're trying for a baby (mainly because I don't want them to analyze me every time I say I don't feel well or interrogate me every month), and it's hard to just not ever say ANYTHING about it. The hubs is great, but I need to spare him sometimes. =) Lucky, lucky you!!