I may have endometriosis.

Emphasis on may. I don't know. But I've had some pretty strange cramping patterns for the past two months and a lot of lower back pain, which I've never had a problem with before. Not to give TMI, but my periods usually lasts 3-4 days. This one has lasted 6. I mentioned it to my coworker at lunch, and she suggested I look up endometriosis. I knew what it was, but I didn't really know what the symptoms were. I figured if I had it, someone would've noticed by now...not realizing the only way it can be diagnosed is through ultrasound or laproscopic surgery.

So, after doing a lot of reading last night about how many cases of infertility stem from endometriosis, how there's no cure, and essentially bawling my eyes out all night long at the thought of not being able to have children, I waited for the doctor to call.

The doctor called me back today. I was really hoping it would be a quick, "Oh, what are your symptoms? Have you been under a lot of stress lately? That could TOTALLY cause this and you have NOTHING to worry about!" kind of conversation, but no such luck. I have an appointment next Tuesday because it was the soonest they could see me, then an ultrasound, then another doctor appointment. I have no idea HOW in heaven's name we are going to pay for this....or what I'll do if I have a severe enough case to cause infertility.

I can't believe I have to wait another week before I even get to talk to a doctor.