...but it's out of frustration, not because I'm singing a catchy song.
Here's a little snippet of life in the ABC123 household lately. First, as I mentioned, school has been pretty brutal--not so much the students, just the schedule and expectations. Each day, I am more anxious for school to be over because as each week brings new school functions and activities, I feel like all my time and energy goes into my job and I don't have time to take care of myself properly or enjoy being pregnant. I haven't been able to get out and go for walks or do any kind of exercise, because by the time I'm finished working, it's well after dark (and my energy is long gone). I know I'm not getting adequate rest--I feel wrung out like a dishrag. I refuse to work my pregnancy away and not appreciate it! This weekend, I flat out refused to bring home any sort of school work and I did stuff that I needed to do for us--our family. I watched my niece and nephew on Friday night, and yesterday I made some moving arrangements with my parents and then attended a baby shower for a lady at my church who just adopted a little boy. I had a great time....I think it was the first baby shower where I've actually had fun. Then, my good girlfriend from church (who's also pregnant) and I went to Starbucks to enjoy some smoothies. It (almost) made me feel recharged enough to face the coming week.
Regarding things on the job front for Mr. ABC123, things have been both moving at breakneck speed and standing still. He has two very promising prospects, but he's waiting to find out the final word on them both. I'm anxious to just know what we're doing. It makes me antsy to not have a place set up for the baby. I know that there's no need to have a fully furnished room right now, but we've had a crib sitting in a box for two months. I want to get it set up. I want to be able to buy things besides diapers for my baby. Heck, I can't even go buy CLOTHES for the baby because we don't know what we're having. I don't regret choosing to be surprised--I just want to feel like there's really a baby coming, instead of having to be at a standstill while the days of my pregnancy tick by.
I would like to send the world a memo telling it that I'll be having this baby in late August or early September, and that's my job. Everybody else just needs to figure out what the heck is going on.
we didn't know where we would be until 8 weeks before g was born. when i was around 6 months pregnant, i remember thinking we might have to stay in an extended stay hotel for several weeks when we came home from the hospital. i completely understand how frustrating and unnerving it is to have this little person to prepare and nest for and not really be able to do it. this is the part where God comes in. he's looking out for you and preparing the way for you...in his own time, of course. :)
ReplyDeleteoh and happy mother's day!!
That must've been so frustrating! I keep telling myself that things WILL work out and I don't need to worry. It is hard trying to transfer doctors at this point in the game, though...and depending on my parents to get stuff cleared out so I can start setting up the nursery, without me being there to help. Once school is out, maybe then I can focus on everything else.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Happy Mother's Day to you too. =)