This.

Today, I stumbled upon a blog called "Trying to Get a Bun in the Oven." I decided to read it because I thought the name was cute. In one of her entries, she was talking about how hard it is to hear pregnancy news. She put it into words better than I ever could:

"Being stripped of the ability to feel happiness for other people and having it replaced with jealousy and bitterness is one of the most demoralizing things I have ever experienced....It feels like I am in the middle of a NASCAR race, stalled in the middle of the track with with everyone else zooming by at break neck speeds, while I just stand still and watch. And there is nothing I can do about it."

I just had to include that here because that is exactly how I feel sometimes!

We're making some great progress with cleaning out the office, and I can't wait to fill it with nursery furniture! (Look at that optimism, huh? ;) ) I've been trying really hard to think of things in terms of how we will be parents someday, and it's just going to take us a few more months than we thought. Does that mean that I'm totally excited to hear about the five pregnancy announcements from this week? Not exactly (although I can say that I am 100% genuinely happy for one of them), but every day just takes us closer to when we'll get to make our own pregnancy announcement. (Right? RIGHT?!) We've been talking these things over soooo much, and I think for now we're just going to focus on trying to figure out why I'm still having abdominal pain and not worry about temping or any of that nonsense. I don't even know which CD it is for me off the top of my head, which isn't typical. It's not that we're not going to try, we're just trying to enjoy the Christmas season more. Is it going to stink in two weeks when AF shows up, and will it depress me and make me oh so sad? Well, of course. But if I can learn how to bounce back faster, that'd be good...and if AF could NOT be late for no reason and get my hopes really high, that'd be good too.