V-A-C-A-T-I-O-N

I'd love one! Maybe not a full-blown vacation, but a night away, or even a dinner out, would be superb.

The past few weeks have been trying. It's been a very full nine weeks, with the death of my grandmother, my dad getting so sick, the birth of my nephew, school starting again, so many unexpected bills, medical tests....etc--not to mention waiting for the ever-elusive BFP.

I have days where I definitely feel bitter about our situation. I'm so sad that my husband can't even get a paycheck for the job he has working in his career field. Today, he was awake for 27 hours. TWENTY SEVEN. All because we attended the wedding yesterday and he wasn't able to come home and sleep before work. So, he was awake all day yesterday, he worked eight hours and then drove to staff meeting (for the career, not the job), which lasted for three hours! He was determined to go to show his dedication to his position. I'm so blessed to be married to such a hardworking man.

I'm sure that God must have a reason for bringing us through this season of our lives, but sometimes it's hard not to be envious of others...especially the stupid things, like their ability to eat out for breakfast each Sunday. God has blessed us in different ways, and I wouldn't trade the blessings that I have for anything. My dad tells me that we should know that we're doing what God wants us to be doing, because Satan is going out of his way to attack us and stop us. I know that he has a point, but sometimes it feels like we're just waiting for the next suckerpunch.